Exam comiiiiiiiiiiing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Exam……………………….when I heard that word………pheeeeeeeeeeeewwwww…………….i can feel that my head became freakishly heavy just like there is something crash on my head…….arghhhhhhh……………but 1 thing I should realize….no matter what happen….by hook or by crook I should have to face it….u know what the person that’s really worry bout me but actually not really bout me what she really worry is my result…..almost every day she call and asking me bout my study and she will make sure that I would be spend my leisure time with study….i think all of u really can assume who that person….of course my beloved mom…..erm………………arghhhhh…………….tension……coz I really hate final exam coz it will make me migraine n my head automatically became freakishly felt bad I really don’t know how to describe about it….if can, I want operate my head n wash my brain n immerse my brain in the ice. After that I’m really sure that my head would became back to the normal…..u know what, migraine will make my head became hot, besides that I can’t sleep tightly when it start attack my head….what’s my problems is I didn’t teach myself to take any medicine if I felt pain or fever. I really don’t know why I cultivate this value in my mind start from the kid…my mom didn’t teach me like this….but I luv reading n I luv in medical….so, in my conclusion….in d medicine has a drug n I know it is under control…but I realize if one day I really need d medicine but my body are not able to accept it anymore coz all of the drug or medicine that we already take b4 this would make our body immune with it….so….i think maybe I take the precaution for my future… I only take d paracetamol if I really need it just like if I have test for the next day but sometime I forget to take the paracetamol n what I have done is just let the migraine conquer my head….this is happen in this final exam…..after imaging paper, I can felt that my head a little bit heavy….but I don’t care bout it….i try sleep but I can’t….so…I continue my preparation for the next paper(design)………I try conquer for this subject coz I think this subject is so-so……meant ok r….on that nite…I’m not able to sleep…..and after around 3 a.m, I go to bed n I wake up back around 5 a.m coz I really need to make a revision b4 I walk in the exam hall…around 8a.m,after shower i make a preparation for d exam that I should seat around 9a.m….i left my phone n I go to the exam by bus…what I think on that time is just want threw out all d thing in my head with quickly then back to the hostel n continue my sleep n relax my brain…but I a little bit confuse why all my frenz didn’t go to the exam by the bus?????i try to think +ve….oooo!!!!!!! maybe they drive to the exam hall….when I arrive at DKD3…..oh my goshhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! Where is everyone….suddenly my head became freakishly heavy n I really tension with this situation….i’m lucky coz I remember my frenz’s number….when I call her, based on her voice I realize that she newly wake up…n I ask her when n where actually our paper…then she told me that….actually the paper is around 2.30 p.m at kubang gajah………arghhhhhhhh………….i’m screaming in my heart……..i’m already wasting my bed time…….i’m really felt bad….i need d bus to go back to hostel but d problem is I need to change d bus from d dragon to kangar n from d kangar to kg wai….from d dragon to kangar actually less than 45 minutes by the bus but I still have a problem on d way….one of the lorry distracting our journey n may coz the bus from the kangar to kg wai left me………I’m really upset n I should have to wait around 1 hrs…..i arrive at my room around 12p.m…after lunch I go to bed around 45minutes then wake up to attend my real test at kubang gajah……but my head really heavy n I can felt that my brain and body hasn’t enough rest….b4 I walk into the exam hall I revise my note for the last time…..after I complete my attendance n open the exam paper I smile coz I really sure that I could answer all the question coz I already study all the question….but what happen to me is I didn’t remember anything….all what I already study b4 this is gone just like I never ever study….arghhhhh!!!!!!!! u know what….i think on that time just like my brain is already attack by the pretty dangerous virus n all the memory and data in my brain is destroy n only a little bit data is left on my memory….after 1 hrs in exam hall….i really can control myself….my tears fell on my exam paper….i move from d exam hall n take my phone then call my mom…..she try to calm down me around 20 minutes….then I go back to my place n just try to answer….now I realize that I already destroy my paper on that evening….i really upset….start on that time…I became a little bit lazy…may be I felt down….i don’t know why the day is became pretty terrible but I can’t undo the time back n I should have to accept my result….i believe that I really don’t want see my result coz I’m freakishly felt bad on that paper……..to my beloved mom, norul really sorry…..i try my best to do the best but I can’t……

STORY OF TOUGH GURL

Hai…..i’m back with the new spirit……do u know why I say like that and what happen to my life????wouuuuuu !!!! i’m really sure all of u don’t know what happen to my life…..around this month I’m freaky terrible and my life became down just in a few minutes….do u ever heard bout this sentence? To build something(anything example life, career ,relationship or whatever), we need a long time but to destroy all the thing that we are dreamz for a long time or almost entire of our life, we can do it just in 1 minutes….That’s happen to my life…..when this happen to my life…..i’m really cannot faces it……my life turn out just like tsunami…my life became messy..what I know is crying and fly into a passion…..i lost my control and almost don’t care bout my study….i became really lazy n if my mum know bout this condition she really upset, angry may be and she really worry bout my situation till she cannot sleep….i really felt guilty if this happen…so, what my mum should know is I have problem but she do not need know what happen to my life…..i also realize that this feeling can kill me, destroy my future and distraction my study……..when this happen to me, I will contact some of my best frenz, my mom n throw out my feeling to them…..hope they can help me and give some advice….what I want is just get back my life and back to the normal……this is becoz I really can’t handle my life…..the first thing what all of them told me is ‘remember dya, all the disaster that I should have to face just a test from ALLAH, to test how tough their servant, ALLAH will not test HIS servant if they are not able to face it. What I should have to do is pray to ALLAH, appeal to ALLAH with my full feeling, hope ALLAH can help me to faces all the disaster in the true path…I appeal to ALLAH sound like this ’YA ALLAH plz save me from sinking n don’t let me down….only YOU can help me…plz coaxing my heart to forget all the disaster and be strong along this life to faces all YOUR disaster coz I’m not able coaxing my heart to forget all the thing that happen to me’….i should have believe that ALLAH always with me and never leave me while I’m in bad condition… ’I follow all the advice that they told me…..besides that, I should also believe that all the disaster that happen to me maybe will follow with the good news after this… who’s know….some of the dictum say that ‘yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a give’…..we don’t know what really happen in the future….it is true……..some of my frenz also try to coaxing me by told me that I have a strong spirit n I’m is a tough person….i know how to handle my life….how to manage my time…I’m stubborn…n I never give up in anything what I have done….i will faces all the matter with bravely………..but my frenz don’t know….all what they say is my behave while I’m at poly not now….i freaky not understand with me…..what happen to me??????where all the behave that I have b4 this gone???i’m the person who is totally change and not similar just like while I’m at poly…..i really lost my mind…..but after 1 month, I already get back my life that I really miss b4 this…..what I want is give full concentrate to my final paper which is start on 3rd November and will be end on 13th November…after 1week of last paper exam, I should have concentrate on final year presentation….so, start now, if I feel tension with my study, I will release my tension with listen the music, watch the movie and the best thing that I really want to do is eating cendol pulut at kuala perlis while luxuriate the fresh air along the sea at kuala perlis…..the air is fresh n this place actually are not really develop, so this place are still sacred from pollution. When the cendol pulut is arrive in my mouth, ermmmmmm………I can feel it………pretty marvelous…….i luv it……and I think that, it is the best cendol that I ever meet along I’m at Perlis….everyday….i will miss the cendol….do u know how much the price of one bowl cendol????? Only rm1.50….the price is really cheap to me…..coz of the ingredient that they are put in the cendol is a lot of thing…so, if compare with the price, the value of the cendol is pretty cheap….i think…..ok…..who is around the Perlis n really luv cendol pulut or ABC, plz come to this place….this stall is simple not really exclusive just like another place but the food at this place also pretty delicious especially kuew tiew or mee hun sup………ohhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! I really luv it………mmmmmmmmmmmuahhhhhhhhhhhh……………..now I can feel that I’m happy with my life….my frenz……n my mum……….tq so mmmmmmmmmuahhhhhhhh to all my frenz who is support me while I’m in down………I really appreciate it…….To me, to be a good frenz is really hard if they have a frenz just like me……….huhu…….

welcome to the new world khalisya ;o)

7th october 2009 is the time that khalisya waiting along 9 month n 9 days.......i know she very excited to see the new world n the new person around her........khalisya imani sarah is her full name.....her name is very beautiful just like her face.....she has a charming face.....her face is white n has a red lip......erm....just like snow white......i really luv to see her......my mum say that she is very nice.....she didn't cry.....what she want is just sleeping n when the nite is coming she will wake up n cry coz she really hungry.....looks like she fasting......haha......one day,,,,,,b4 khalisya was born....i'm asking to her eldest sister....her name is khayra (5 yrs....)....where is khalisya??????she answer my question like this...'khalisya in mama's stomach.....do u really don't know it?????it's simple.....'then i'm asking her again.....why she in ur mama's stomach?????coz she luv sit in mama's stomach n she doesn't want went out from there......o....really.....i think....her answer is very funny.....i can see that khayra really luv her youngest sister so much......i really can't waiting to see her.....luv her so much.....when i back to the hometown.....what i want to do is.....hugging her.....kiss her......and around this semester break i just want spend my time with her n the important thing is i want count on her......but i'm really sure that....when the semester break is ending....i will miss her so much.....n i will crying in the bus coz i miss them......but what can i do......i shall have to face it......n i shall have tough spirit to face all my feeling to them.......i still have 6 month meaning 1 semester at UNIMAP, perlis.....i really can't waiting anymore......after this......i can do what i want......i want travel with my niece n nephew n my cool youngest brother.....he really sporting....i luv him so much....he has tough body n nice looking.....so while i walk with him around the market....her friend were jealous n they are thought that i'm his gurlfrenz....sometimes....when he meet his frenz(gurl)....his frenz will asking him...'is she ur gurfrenz while starring to me'.....when i heard that soung....i hug his hand......then i laughing....haha......that time his value market become down....haha.....i think maybe they are believe i'm his gurlfrenz coz we are shopping together n sometimes he accompany me shopping.....i really luv shopping.....n we have a same hobbies.....i luv shopping cloth,shoes n anything else......besides that we are also luv bout computer.....so every time we are went out together....we will go to it centers. he n 2 my eldest brothers make me crazy in luv with the computer accessories.....they are really perfect bout computer....n they really don't care how much the price, what they want just perfect.....so...i'm just like them......but maybe i'm not freaky perfect just like them.....that's why i luv leave with them....coz they will do anything to me.....so... i just see n make sure what i want will be true....haha.....besides that they also count on me very well......that's y i'm a little bit indulge but only with my family.....;o)

my feeling n my family

2day is 16th sept…..i really excited coz 2nite i will go back to my hometown….i’m really homesick…..i miss my mum n dad so much…..miss my twin niece n nephew…..speechless….my twin name is nursara damia n aidil danial….but i just call them dammy n dany…..dammy is really cute n charming baby otherwise dany has a chubby face….i also luv him….around 18th my eldest sister from shah alam will come back to kuantan. this is will make our house will become chaos becoz she has 2 children who are name khayrin eimir darwish n khayra nursofea. Both of them are very hyperactive…..i luv them so much but sometime i’m not able kept my temper……but i learn something from them…..although i anger with them,they are still luv me and sometime they give me some advice if they saw me angry…..when i remind back…pretty funny….coz their behave make me feel better n happy…..now i understand….why my mum still luv my sibling although we are make her angry or upset. Children is a give from ALLAH……although we should had faces a lot of obstacles to grow them,i believe as a mum, she still try to do the best for us. Besides that, as a mum,i can feel that my mum try to fulfil everything that we are needed or we want it. Sometimes i can feel that, it is freaky terrible to be a good mum or the best mum in the world….but if we are think in positive thinking…..there is nothing possible in this world….we can be what we want to be and we can achieve what we are dreamz…..i have a story about one slave pray to ALLAH…one day a man ask to ALLAH…..can u give me a flowers and butterfly????but ALLAH just fulfil their dreamz by giving a caterpillar and seed. Thats guy really upset coz he never got what he want…..from a day to a day the caterpillar grew and become a beautiful butterfly n the seed grew become a plant which is produce the beautiful flowers. Now, that man felt guilty becoz he ever give up to ALLAH…..Means, we can get what we want only ALLAH know when the appropriate time HE could fulfil our dreamz....

This is my 1st time i have write the blog. what i feel??? erm, i just want to release my tension….if u all want to know…i’m a last year student at UNIMAP…i don’t know y, this sem i can’t appropriate myself with surrounding. Maybe coz of i already undergo my industrial training around 6months at my hometown, kuantan..i really…my kuantan n my famly…1st week i’m at Perlis, i feel that so boring and almost every day i call my mom. sy xblh nak mkn maybe coz of sy xdpt sesuaikan diri dgn cara pemakanan di sini…but i reallyx2 thank to ALLAH becoz pertemukan dgn my adopt parents. they r very nice…n i luv their cooking.cara dia masak just like my mom..and we r sharing the same hobbies…i luv cooking n try to learn from her and her mother on how to cook n she like gardening just like me…u know what…sometime saya ada sifat kurang malu skit…hehe….when i c at surrounding their home has a lot of vegetables…i will ask to her on how she plant the vegetables in polybag plastic n it can grow with healthy??…sometimes, she just plant them on the ground n u know what??tanah 2 kering but the vegetables still can alive. i xbelieve it coz at my hometown, it is pretty hard to grow and alive…so i really want to know what kind of the secret…rupa2nyer, her daughter work at jabatan pertanian so, benih2 yg dorg nak agihkan kepada petani2 dia abik n test power rupa2nyer jadi….so….i pun dgn slamber minta r 1 or 2 pack of the seeds coz want to apply at my hometown…erm….dah xsabar nak balik kg raya ni n nak test power…huhu….u know what,gardening kan make me happy n release my tension….escpecially when it can grow with healthy n when it produce the flowers or fruit….erm…nasib baik r kawasan rumah sy 2 sekangkang kera kalu besar…dah mcm2 pokok saya tnm….u all notice x???…all the perfume is made from the plant or flowers. this is coz it can give us therapy when we smell it…n do u all know, why tiger,elephant and another animal in the jungle are not have poor sight problem? this is coz of they usually see the green plant in the jungle…some people say that if we r looking to the green environment, it’s just like therapy or treatment to our eyes…but i’m not sure that.erm…i don’t know it’s a fact or just a rumours but i believe it’s true because i ever try…i think my blog quite boring right….this is my 1st time n next time i would like to share my life n u all will know who am i…..huhu